I don't know if its a real problem or not but I have been extremely suicidal for the past three days. How do you get rid of these thoughts when you want to grant yourself death? The thoughts on how to kill myself are very disturbing as well, for example this was one of my thoughts the other night " That knife under my bed is calling my name, pleading for it to be used to grant my wish of death. Its in hands reach..why not grab it? To just put its sharp shiny blade up to my neck and stab my throat and let the blood gush out like a waterfall, a river of red would stream down my neck, warm and stick. IF i could just grant myself this wish I woul